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The Great Heatpocalypse: Surviving a Week Without AC with Three Kids and a Melting Cat

The Great Heatpocalypse: Surviving a Week Without AC with Three Kids and a Melting Cat

Posted by Natasha Red on March 22, 2025

You know what really tests a family’s resilience? Not those team-building exercises where you fall backward into someone’s arms. Not those wilderness survival vacations where you learn to start fires with sticks. Not even those escape rooms where you solve puzzles while the clock ticks down.

No, the true test of family strength is when your air conditioning dies during the hottest week of summer and the repair person can’t come for SEVEN DAYS.

This is our story of survival. May it serve as both entertainment and preparation for your own inevitable home disaster.

The Day Everything Changed

It was a perfectly normal Tuesday in July when our AC unit decided to commit suicide with a concerning grinding noise followed by complete silence. Outside, the temperature was hitting 97 degrees. Inside, it was a comfortable 72 degrees—a comfort that would soon become nothing but a distant memory.

“It’s probably just a minor thing,” Mark said confidently, heading to the basement to check the unit. “I’ll watch a YouTube video and fix it.”

Three YouTube videos and one alarming electrical spark later, Mark returned upstairs looking defeated.

“We need a professional,” he admitted, reaching for his phone.

This is when we learned a universal truth: HVAC systems only break during heat waves when every repair company is booked solid.

“We can get someone out next Tuesday,” was the earliest appointment we could get.

“NEXT Tuesday?” I repeated, doing quick mental math. “That’s seven days from now.”

“Yes ma’am,” said the sympathetic but unhelpful scheduler. “We’re completely booked until then. Every company in the area is swamped.”

And just like that, our week of heat-induced family bonding began.

Day 1: Denial and Bargaining

The first day wasn’t so bad. We opened windows, deployed every fan we owned, and convinced ourselves it was “just like camping.”

“We’re building character,” I announced, serving Popsicles for dinner because turning on any heat-generating appliance seemed criminally negligent.

The kids thought this was great fun. Jake suggested we pretend we were explorers in the desert. Emma rolled her eyes but secretly enjoyed eating frozen treats for dinner. Lily stripped down to her underwear and declared herself a “wild jungle animal.”

Only the cat seemed to understand the gravity of our situation, spreading herself across the kitchen tiles like a furry pancake, giving me accusatory looks.

Day 2: The Great Migration

By day two, the house had transformed into what felt like a sauna run by sadists. The indoor temperature hit 88 degrees, and basic tasks like “putting on clothes” or “moving” became feats of endurance.

We established a rotation system for the one room where we’d placed all our fans, creating a small zone of barely-tolerable temperature. The bathroom became highly coveted real estate for its cool tile floor.

Mark called more HVAC companies, offering increasingly desperate bribes.

“I’ll pay double your regular rate,” I overheard him saying. “Triple? My children are melting.”

No luck. We were stuck in heat purgatory.

That night, we attempted to sleep with wet washcloths on our foreheads like Victorian invalids. I woke at 3 AM to find all three children and the cat had migrated to the kitchen floor.

Day 3: Seeking Asylum

By the third day, we became climate refugees, seeking air-conditioned sanctuaries wherever we could find them.

I extended my workday at the office by three hours. Mark set up his laptop at the public library. We took the kids to the mall, where we wandered aimlessly through stores we had no intention of buying from, just absorbing their blessed coolness.

“If we buy one small thing every hour, we can stay here all day,” Mark whispered as we entered our fourth hour at Target.

When we finally returned home in the evening, opening the front door felt like walking into a preheated oven. The cat gave us a look that clearly said, “You abandoned me in hell.”

Day 4: The Breaking Point

On day four, with the outside temperature hitting 99 degrees, our thermostat read 92 inside. Even breathing felt like work.

This was when I called Bert Miskell, owner of BPM Heating & Cooling, a hvac repair company in Frederick MD, in one last desperate attempt to find help. I’d heard he sometimes took emergency cases, and at this point, I was ready to classify our situation somewhere between “urgent medical crisis” and “natural disaster.”

Bert couldn’t come himself (he was already handling three emergency cases), but he did offer some wisdom that helped us survive the remaining days:

“The biggest mistake people make during AC outages is fighting against the heat instead of working with it. Your house is going to be hot—that’s a fact. So focus on cooling the people, not the space. Drink more water than you think you need. Use wet towels on pulse points. And remember that your body can acclimate to heat, but it takes about three days. You’re almost through the worst of it.”

He also suggested we create a “cool room” by closing off one room, covering the windows completely, and focusing our fans there to create at least one tolerable space.

“And call around to equipment rental places,” he added. “Sometimes you can get a portable unit that will at least get you through until repairs can be made.”

These practical tips felt like a lifeline. Finally, someone who understood our suffering!

Day 5: Adaptation

Armed with Bert’s advice, we transformed Emma’s room (the smallest bedroom) into our “cool room.” We covered her windows with aluminum foil like proper conspiracy theorists, set up a strategic fan formation, and created a family camp-out space.

Mark found a rental place with one portable AC unit left. It wasn’t powerful enough to cool the whole house, but when added to our cool room strategy, it created what felt like a polar paradise compared to the rest of the house.

That night, all five of us (six including the cat, who refused to be separated from the only cool air source) slept in a jumble of mattresses and blankets on Emma’s floor. It wasn’t comfortable, but it was survivable.

“This is actually kind of fun,” Jake said as we played board games by flashlight (electricity usage generates heat, so we were minimizing lights).

“Speak for yourself,” Emma replied, but she was smiling.

Day 6: Community Support

By day six, word of our plight had spread through the neighborhood. The community response was heartwarming:

  • Mrs. Peterson from next door brought over a cooler of ice packs
  • The Jacobsons invited the kids to swim in their pool
  • Three different families dropped off dinner so we wouldn’t have to cook
  • My office mate loaned us her dehumidifier, which helped make the heat feel less oppressive

As we sat on the front porch that evening (the only time when outside was actually cooler than inside), eating sandwiches and drinking cold lemonade, I was struck by how crisis brings people together.

“We’ve talked to more neighbors this week than in the past year,” Mark observed.

He was right. There’s something about shared suffering that cuts through the usual social barriers.

Day 7: The Light at the End of the Sweaty Tunnel

By the final day, we had established routines and coping mechanisms. Morning cool showers. Midday escape to air-conditioned public spaces. Evening porch sitting. Night huddling in our cool room fortress.

We’d adapted in ways I wouldn’t have thought possible. The kids had stopped complaining. Mark and I had stopped snapping at each other. Even the cat had developed a new skill of finding the coolest spot in any room with laser precision.

When I called to confirm our appointment for the next day, the HVAC company’s scheduler mentioned they had a cancellation and could come that afternoon instead.

I nearly wept with joy.

The Sweet Sound of Relief

When the repair technician finally arrived, we greeted him like a returning war hero. The kids made a “Welcome AC Person” sign. Mark offered him a cold drink before he’d even set down his tools.

The diagnosis: a failed compressor. The prognosis: fixable by evening.

As the technician worked, I remembered something else Bert Miskell had told me during our call: “Air conditioning is one of those things people take completely for granted until it’s gone. Then suddenly it becomes more valuable than just about anything else in your home.”

He wasn’t wrong. I’d have traded my car, my phone, and possibly a non-essential body part to get our AC working sooner.

When the system finally hummed back to life and the first cool breeze emerged from our vents, the whole family cheered. Lily danced around the living room. The cat purred for the first time in a week.

What We Learned From The Heatpocalypse

Looking back on our week of heat-induced insanity, I realized we learned some valuable lessons:

  1. We’re more adaptable than we think. Human beings survived for thousands of years without air conditioning. We managed seven days, and while it wasn’t fun, we did it.
  2. Crisis reveals character. I learned that Jake is amazingly resilient in difficult situations. Emma, despite her teenage complaints, stepped up to help with Lily. And Mark kept his sense of humor even when he was sweating through every shirt he owned.
  3. Comfort is relative. By day seven, 85 degrees felt “not that bad.” The first night after our AC was fixed, we actually set the thermostat to 76 instead of our usual 72, and it felt like an icebox.
  4. Community matters. The support from neighbors and friends made a difficult situation bearable.
  5. Regular HVAC maintenance is not optional. As Bert Miskell explained when I called to thank him for his advice, “Most emergency breakdowns could have been prevented with regular maintenance. It’s like going to the dentist—not fun, but a lot better than an emergency root canal.”

We’ve now scheduled twice-yearly HVAC check-ups. We’ve also invested in a proper window unit to keep as a backup, and I’ve created an “AC emergency kit” with battery-operated fans, cooling towels, and other heat survival tools.

Because if there’s one thing this experience taught me, it’s that modern parenthood is challenging enough with functioning climate control. Without it? It’s like parenting on extreme difficulty mode.

Have you survived a home system failure with children? Share your stories of triumph (or nervous breakdowns) in the comments below!

Natasha Red now has an HVAC technician on speed dial and checks her air conditioning unit with the devotion of a religious acolyte. When not preventing future home disasters, she can be found appreciating the modern miracle of climate control and reminding her children that yes, they DO need to close the door when they go outside because “we’re not cooling the entire neighborhood.”

DIY Disaster: How Our Weekend Paint Project Turned Into a Month-Long Saga

DIY Disaster: How Our Weekend Paint Project Turned Into a Month-Long Saga

Posted by Natasha Red on March 18, 2025

There’s something about spring that makes perfectly rational people believe they’re capable of incredible feats of home improvement. The sun comes out, home decor shows start auto-playing on Netflix, and suddenly you’re convinced that you—a person who once super-glued your fingers together trying to fix a coffee mug—can completely transform your living space with nothing but a few YouTube tutorials and blind optimism.

This, friends, is the story of how our “simple weekend project” to repaint our living room turned into a month-long saga that tested our marriage, our sanity, and our children’s vocabulary of curse words.

The Innocent Beginning

It started innocently enough. The living room walls, once a crisp “Dove White,” had evolved over seven years with three children into what I can only describe as “Evidence of Crime Scene.” Crayon masterpieces, mysterious sticky handprints, and the time Jake tested if markers really were washable (narrator: they were not) had left our walls looking like an abstract expressionist had a seizure.

“We should repaint,” I said casually one evening, scrolling through Pinterest while Mark watched basketball. “It can’t be that hard. People do it all the time.”

Mark, without looking away from the game, muttered, “Sure, sounds good.”

And just like that, with the casual agreement of two people who had absolutely no idea what they were agreeing to, Project Paint Nightmare was born.

The Color Wars

Our first mistake was involving the children in the color selection process. I envisioned a calm family discussion resulting in a sophisticated neutral that would complement our furniture and hide future grime.

What actually happened was a three-day war of attrition.

Emma advocated passionately for a shade called “Midnight Plum” that was essentially black with the faintest hint of purple—perfect for her future as a Victorian ghost, apparently.

Jake wanted “Superhero Blue,” which looked like someone had liquified a Smurf.

Lily, not to be outdone, insisted on “Princess Pink,” a color so aggressively bubble-gum that it gave me a migraine just looking at the swatch.

Mark and I wanted something in the beige/gray family, which the kids unanimously declared “boring” with the kind of disdain usually reserved for broccoli and early bedtimes.

After multiple sample pots, several tears (mostly mine), and one paint swatch that mysteriously ended up stuck to the cat, we compromised on “Coastal Fog”—a soothing blue-gray that wouldn’t show dirt and wouldn’t make our living room look like either a nightmare dungeon or the inside of a bottle of Pepto-Bismol.

The Supply Run That Broke The Bank

This brings me to our second mistake: underestimating everything about this project.

“We just need paint and brushes, right?” Mark said as we headed to the home improvement store on a Saturday morning.

Three hours and $427 later, we staggered out with:

  • Two gallons of premium paint (because apparently, cheap paint is just colored water)
  • Primer (a concept neither of us had considered)
  • An assortment of brushes and rollers that the sales associate insisted were “essential”
  • Drop cloths to protect our floors
  • Painter’s tape (“Blue tape is your best friend,” the associate assured us)
  • A contraption to attach rollers to poles
  • Multiple trays and liners
  • Something called “cutting in tools” that I still don’t fully understand
  • Sandpaper, spackle, and patching tools for wall preparation
  • A variety of overpriced beverages and snacks because shopping for paint supplies is apparently exhausting

As we loaded our haul into the minivan, Mark whispered, “We could have gone on a weekend getaway for this amount.”

If only we had.

The Words of Wisdom We Should Have Heeded

Before starting, I’d actually done some research and came across an interview with Kevin Brackens, owner of Brackens Painting. His words should have been our warning:

“The biggest mistake homeowners make is thinking painting is just about slapping color on a wall. Proper preparation takes 70% of the time in a quality paint job. Skip the prep, and you’ll be looking at bubbling, peeling, and uneven coverage within months. When homeowners tell me they can paint their living room in a weekend, I know they don’t understand what they’re getting into.”

Reader, we did not understand what we were getting into.

Did we heed Kevin’s wisdom about preparation? Did we carefully patch holes, sand rough spots, clean walls, and apply primer diligently?

We did not.

“It’ll be fine,” Mark said, slapping a piece of blue tape haphazardly along the ceiling edge. “The paint has primer in it already.”

Day One: Optimism Dies Quickly

Saturday morning began with boundless enthusiasm. We moved furniture, laid drop cloths, and assigned jobs. Even the kids were excited, dressed in their oldest clothes ready to help.

By noon, our enthusiasm had evaporated faster than cheap paint thinner.

We discovered that:

  1. Our walls had more imperfections than we’d noticed in seven years of living here
  2. Painter’s tape does not, in fact, create perfectly straight lines when applied by amateurs
  3. “Cutting in” around edges is an art form, not an intuitive skill
  4. Children’s help with painting is actually the opposite of help
  5. Premium paint can still drip and splatter with impressive reach

After Emma accidentally painted a streak across our ceiling, Jake stepped in a paint tray, and Lily used a roller to create what she called a “fog rainbow” across our sofa (which was supposedly protected by drop cloths), we banished the children to the backyard under Mark’s supervision while I tried to salvage what was quickly becoming a disaster.

The Family Meltdown

By 7 PM on Saturday, we had completed exactly one and a half walls. My back felt like I’d been medieval tortured. Mark had paint in his ear somehow. The kids were filthy, hungry, and cranky. And our living room looked worse than when we started.

“Maybe we should call a professional,” I suggested, stretching my cramping hand.

“After spending $427 on supplies? No way,” Mark replied, his pride clearly at stake. “We can do this.”

This is the moment our weekend project officially extended beyond a weekend.

We ordered pizza, put the kids to bed, and spent another three hours painting until midnight, when exhaustion and a near-divorce experience over the proper rolling technique forced us to call it a night.

The Extended Timeline

What happened next was a blur of weeknight painting sessions, additional supply runs (how does one run out of EVERYTHING?), and increasingly creative excuses to visitors about why our living room looked like a war zone.

“We’re going for an industrial, deconstructed look,” I told my mother-in-law when she stopped by unexpectedly in week two.

By day 14, we’d finally finished the actual painting, only to remove the painter’s tape and discover horror show edges that required touch-ups with a detail brush. I spent three evenings hunched like a gargoyle, painting one-centimeter sections while questioning all my life choices.

The Professional Assessment

Finally, after nearly a month, our living room was painted. It looked… okay. Not professional. Not terrible. Just okay. The color was nice, but up close, you could see every amateur mistake.

When my friend Lisa stopped by, she brought her neighbor Kevin—who turned out to be THE Kevin Brackens of Brackens Painting that I’d read about. I wanted to hide under the newly painted “Coastal Fog” walls.

Kevin was kind enough not to laugh openly at our work, but he did share some wisdom that I’m passing on to save you from our fate:

“DIY painting isn’t about saving money—it’s about the satisfaction of doing it yourself. But if you’re going to do it yourself, do it right. Take the time to prepare properly. Be patient with the process. And understand that what professionals do in a day takes amateurs a week because we’ve made all the mistakes already so you don’t have to.”

He glanced at our ceiling, where faint blue smudges were still visible despite my touch-up attempts, and added, “And always, always use ceiling paint on ceilings. It’s formulated differently for a reason.”

Lessons Learned

Now that our “weekend” project is finally complete and we’ve reopened our living room to the children (with extensive threats about what will happen if anyone so much as looks at the walls with dirty hands), here’s what we learned:

  1. There’s a reason professionals exist. Some skills take years to perfect, and painting is definitely one of them.
  2. Preparation really is 70% of the job. Kevin Brackens wasn’t exaggerating. The spots where we rushed prep work are painfully obvious now.
  3. The “DIY discount” is a myth. By the time we factored in all the supplies, the pizza dinners because I was too exhausted to cook, the therapist I’ll need to process this trauma, and the value of our time, we could have hired professionals and possibly gone on that weekend getaway too.
  4. Marriage counseling is cheaper than divorce. There were moments during this project when Mark and I communicated solely through grunts and sighs, having exhausted our ability to disagree constructively about roller technique.
  5. Children and paint are a combination invented by Satan. I’m still finding blue-gray fingerprints in places that defy explanation.

But there was one unexpected benefit to this disaster: While scrubbing paint out of Lily’s hair one night (don’t ask), she looked up at me and said, “Mommy, even though painting is hard and daddy said lots of words I’m not allowed to say, I like that we did it together.”

And that, friends, is how I justify the entire fiasco to myself. We didn’t just paint a living room. We created a memory—a traumatic one, perhaps, but a shared family experience nonetheless.

Will we DIY again? Ask me after therapy. But for now, I’ve hidden all the home improvement shows in our Netflix profile and flinch when anyone mentions the word “project.”

As Kevin Brackens wisely told us while diplomatically examining our handiwork, “The best tool in a homeowner’s arsenal is often their phone—to call someone who does this every day.”

Amen, Kevin. Amen.

Have you survived a DIY disaster? Share your home improvement horror stories in the comments. Misery loves company, especially when it’s covered in paint!

When Your Dream Home Becomes a Nightmare: What I Learned from Our Home Inspection Fiasco

Posted by Natasha Red on March 14, 2025

You know those moments in life when you’re absolutely certain you’ve made a terrible, possibly financially catastrophic decision? Last month, I had one of those moments standing in the basement of what was supposed to be our dream home, watching water seep through the foundation while our real estate agent awkwardly checked her phone.

Let me back up. After seven years in our current house—the one where we brought Lily home from the hospital, where Jake learned to ride a bike in the driveway, and where Emma has claimed the corner bedroom as her “teenage sanctuary”—Mark and I decided we needed more space. Three growing kids, two work-from-home parents (at least part-time), and one increasingly irritable cat meant we were bursting at the seams.

When we found the two-story colonial with the big backyard and the finished basement (hello, potential home office!), we fell hard. Like, “writing an offer $15K over asking price” hard. The kind of hard where you’re already mentally arranging furniture and planning where to hang family photos.

“I’ve Seen Homeowners Make Expensive Mistakes That Could’ve Been Prevented”

This is where I should have remembered what Geremey Engle, a home inspector from Winchester, VA, once said in an article I bookmarked years ago: “The biggest mistake I see homeowners make is falling in love with a property and then overlooking critical issues because they’re already emotionally invested. I’ve seen homeowners make expensive mistakes that could’ve been prevented with proper inspection and due diligence.”

Did I heed this sage wisdom? Of course not! I’m Natasha, the woman who once decided she could cut her own bangs at 11 PM after three glasses of wine. Rational decision-making isn’t always my strong suit.

Mark and I were so confident in the house’s condition (it looked perfect! the owners seemed so nice!) that we considered waiving the inspection to make our offer more competitive. Thankfully, our real estate agent—who deserves a fruit basket or possibly a small island named after her—insisted we keep the inspection contingency.

The Inspection Day from Hell

Fast forward to inspection day. I arrived at the house expecting a quick formality. I’d even brought paint samples to hold up against the walls while the inspector did his thing. But two hours in, I knew something was wrong. The inspector had been in the basement for an unusually long time, and I could hear what sounded like camera clicks and concerned muttering.

When I finally ventured down, I found him taking multiple photos of a section of the foundation wall that was distinctly darker than the rest. As if on cue, a small bead of water emerged from a nearly invisible crack and began its slow journey down the concrete.

“Has it rained recently?” he asked, knowing full well it had been bone dry for weeks.

That was just the beginning. Over the next hour, he discovered:

  • A roof that had “maybe 2-3 years left, and that’s being generous”
  • Electrical wiring that he described as “creative and terrifying”
  • Evidence of a previous termite infestation that had been painted over
  • HVAC equipment that was approximately 100 years old (slight exaggeration, but only slight)
  • And the coup de grâce: signs of black mold behind the recently renovated kitchen

Remember those beautiful kitchen photos that made me swoon? Turns out they were the equivalent of putting lipstick on a toxic, potentially health-hazardous pig.

The Family Meeting

That night, we had what I call a “family summit.” Mark and I sat down with the kids to discuss our options. The repair estimates were coming in at nearly $80,000—money we definitely didn’t have just lying around after making a down payment.

“But I already told Mackenzie which bedroom would be mine,” Emma protested, somehow making this global catastrophe all about her social standing.

“I don’t want mold in my lungs,” Jake countered, suddenly an expert in respiratory health.

Lily, bless her heart, just wanted to know if the new house had good hiding spots for her collection of partially chewed erasers.

Mark, ever the pragmatist, laid out our options: walk away and keep looking, or negotiate with the sellers for significant repairs or price reduction.

The Unexpected Silver Lining

This is where things get interesting—and where I learned something about our family that I might never have discovered if everything had gone smoothly.

We decided to involve the kids in the decision-making process. Not just in a “we’re pretending to listen to you but will do whatever we want” way, but genuinely. We explained the financial implications, the renovation disruption, and the uncertainty. We talked about the difference between cosmetic issues and structural problems, using terms they could understand.

And you know what? They asked amazing questions. Emma wanted to know if we could prioritize repairs based on safety rather than appearance (yes, my appearance-obsessed teenager said this). Jake suggested we get multiple quotes from different contractors. Lily, in her four-year-old wisdom, asked if we could just fix the parts of the house we use the most and leave the rest for later.

In that moment, gathered around our kitchen table with pizza and spreadsheets, I realized we weren’t just teaching our kids about home buying—we were showing them how to handle disappointment, make tough decisions, and problem-solve as a team.

What We Decided

After much deliberation (and several more inspections with specialists), we ended up walking away from the house. The sellers were unwilling to address the major issues, and frankly, the more we learned, the more concerned we became about what else might be lurking behind those freshly painted walls.

Was it disappointing? Absolutely. The kids had already measured their rooms and picked out paint colors. Mark had identified the perfect spot for his grill on the back deck. I’d created an entire Pinterest board dedicated to decorating a house we would never own.

But here’s what Geremey Engle said that really stuck with me: “A home inspection isn’t about finding reasons to walk away from a house you love. It’s about making an informed decision about possibly the largest investment of your life. Sometimes walking away is the best decision you can make for your family’s future.”

He was right. Walking away wasn’t a failure—it was a bullet dodged.

The Lessons We’re Taking Forward

As we restart our house hunt (with slightly more realistic expectations), here’s what we’ve learned:

  1. Emotional investment before inspection is dangerous. I now refuse to mentally arrange furniture until all inspections are complete.
  2. Kids understand more than we give them credit for. Involving them in big family decisions (in age-appropriate ways) helps them develop critical thinking skills and gives them a sense of control during changes.
  3. What looks perfect on the surface often isn’t. This applies to houses, social media posts, and that mom at school pickup who seems to have it all together. (Trust me, she doesn’t.)
  4. Sometimes the best decisions feel like disappointments in the moment. Walking away from that house felt like giving up on a dream, but we now realize it was protecting a bigger dream—financial stability and a truly safe home for our family.
  5. Always, ALWAYS get a thorough home inspection. This isn’t negotiable, no matter how competitive the market or how perfect the house seems.

We’re still living in our too-small house with our increasingly irritable cat. Emma still complains about sharing a bathroom with her siblings. Jake’s basketball hoop is still too close to the living room window (a fact I’m reminded of weekly). And Lily’s toys continue to multiply like rabbits in every corner.

But we’re together, we’re safe, and we’re not dealing with toxic mold or “creative and terrifying” electrical work. Sometimes that’s victory enough.

As we continue our house hunt with wiser eyes and a more cautious approach, I keep returning to Geremey Engle’s wisdom: “Your dream home shouldn’t keep you up at night with worry. When you find the right house, you’ll sleep soundly knowing you’ve made a sound decision.”

Here’s to future sound sleep—and to house inspectors who save us from ourselves.

Have you ever walked away from something you thought you wanted, only to realize it was the right decision? Share your stories of bullet-dodging in the comments below!

The Working Mom’s Guilt Olympics: Why I’m Retiring Undefeated

Posted by Natasha Red on February 28, 2025

If guilt-carrying were an Olympic sport, working moms would sweep the podium every time. We’ve mastered the art of feeling bad about literally everything, often simultaneously. After a decade of competing at the highest levels of the Guilt Games, I’ve decided to retire undefeated—because frankly, I’m exhausted, and this particular competition has zero actual winners.

My Medal-Winning Guilt Routines

Over the years, I’ve perfected several guilt routines that would score perfect 10s from even the harshest judges:

The Work/Family Balance Beam
This challenging event involves feeling guilty about work while at home AND feeling guilty about home while at work. I’ve executed this flawlessly for years—answering emails during Jake’s soccer games while also worrying about missing Emma’s presentation during an important client meeting. The mental gymnastics required are extraordinary.

The School Involvement Floor Exercise
I’ve perfected the routine of volunteering for exactly one classroom activity per child per year, then spending the rest of the year feeling inadequate compared to the Pinterest-perfect room moms who somehow attend every event. The dismount involves writing apologetic emails about missing the Valentine’s Day party while attaching an Amazon gift card for supplies.

The Meal Preparation Vault
My signature move involves meticulously meal planning on Sunday, then abandoning the plan by Wednesday and serving chicken nuggets while silently calculating the nutritional deficiencies my children are developing. The degree of difficulty increases when scrolling past Instagram photos of bento box lunches while ordering pizza.

The Synchronized Bedtime Swim
This event tests endurance as you attempt to create meaningful, screen-free bedtime routines for multiple children after working a full day. Points are deducted every time you fall asleep before finishing the bedtime story or check your phone during precious “quality time.”

The Screen Time Marathon
The ultimate endurance event where you try to enforce the American Academy of Pediatrics’ screen time guidelines while simultaneously using screens as a necessary survival tool. Gold medal performances include feeling bad about iPad time while using that time to finish work assignments that will keep a roof over their heads.

The Ruthless Judges in My Head

What makes the Guilt Olympics so brutal is the panel of judges living in my mind:

Social Media Supermoms
These judges only show carefully curated highlight reels but somehow convince me they’re documenting reality. They post homemade organic baby food while I’m not entirely sure what vegetable my kids last consumed.

Well-Meaning Relatives
These judges ask innocent questions like, “Don’t you miss your kids during the day?” or “Wouldn’t it be nice if you could be home for them after school?” Their commentary is particularly cutting during the holiday season.

My Childhood Memories
This judge reminds me that my mom was home every day after school with freshly baked cookies, conveniently forgetting that we also had no college fund and financial stress was a constant companion.

Workplace Expectations
This judge deducts points whenever family obligations interfere with professional opportunities, with bonus deductions if male colleagues without primary caregiving responsibilities advance faster.

Expert Child Development Research
This particularly harsh judge presents studies about the importance of parental presence, attachment, nutrition, limited screen time, reading, outdoor play, and socialization—all of which require more hours than actually exist in a day.

My Own Ridiculous Standards
The head judge—the one I can never seem to please—is me. I’ve set impossible standards based on an amalgamation of my mother’s best qualities, Instagram perfection, workplace excellence, and the ludicrous notion that I should be good at everything simultaneously.

Why I’m Retiring from the Guilt Games

Last Tuesday was the breaking point. I was late to a meeting because Lily had a meltdown about her socks. Then I missed a call from Jake’s teacher because I was in said meeting. I forgot about Emma’s science project materials until 9 PM. And when I finally collapsed into bed, I realized I hadn’t had a single meaningful conversation with Mark all day.

As I lay there cataloging my failures, a thought suddenly hit me: What if I just… stopped? What if I retired from competitive guilt-carrying and redirected that energy toward something actually productive?

So I made a decision. I’m hanging up my guilt medals and stepping off the podium. Here’s why:

Guilt Doesn’t Make Me a Better Mother
After extensive field research (a.k.a. a decade of parenting), I’ve concluded that feeling guilty doesn’t improve my parenting in any measurable way. It doesn’t make my kids healthier, happier, or more secure. It just makes me distracted and irritable, which definitely makes me a worse mother.

My Kids Are Actually Thriving
When I step back from the guilt fog, I see three happy, resilient, kind human beings who are developing important life skills. Emma’s independence, Jake’s creativity, and Lily’s confidence didn’t happen despite my working motherhood—in many ways, they happened because of it.

The Research Is More Nuanced Than the Headlines
After diving deeper into child development research (beyond the panic-inducing headlines), I’ve learned that quality of interaction matters more than quantity. My children don’t need a mother who is physically present but mentally absent and resentful. They need one who is engaged and happy during the time we have together.

Working Fulfills Me, and That Matters Too
I’m a better mother because I work. My career gives me purpose, adult interaction, intellectual stimulation, and economic security. These aren’t selfish indulgences—they’re legitimate human needs. Meeting them allows me to be more present when I am with my children.

Perfect Parenting Is a Dangerous Myth
Children don’t need perfect parents; they need authentic, loving humans who model resilience, self-compassion, and realistic expectations. By chasing some impossible standard of maternal perfection, I’m actually teaching my kids harmful lessons about self-worth.

My Retirement Plan

Instead of competing in the Guilt Olympics, here’s what I’m doing instead:

Embracing “Good Enough” Parenting
Research by psychologist D.W. Winnicott introduced the concept of the “good enough mother”—one who adapts to her baby’s needs appropriately, not perfectly. Children actually benefit from parents who gradually let them experience manageable disappointments. Perfect parenting, it turns out, isn’t just impossible—it’s not even desirable.

Setting Realistic Standards
My new benchmark is simple: Are my kids safe, loved, and having their basic needs met? Am I teaching them values that matter to our family? Am I showing up emotionally when it counts most? If yes, we’re doing fine.

Celebrating My Unique Contribution
Instead of comparing myself to other mothers, I’m focusing on the unique gifts I bring. My children are learning about work ethic, financial independence, pursuing passions, and balancing multiple roles—all valuable life lessons.

Modeling Self-Compassion
I’m practicing treating myself with the same kindness I would offer a friend in my situation. When I hear that guilt voice creeping in, I ask myself: “Would I judge another mother this harshly? What would I say to support her?”

Being Honest with My Kids
I’ve started having age-appropriate conversations with my children about work, choices, and balance. Emma recently told me she’s proud of my job and wants to work “like Mommy” someday. That moment was worth more than all the class parties I’ve missed.

Finding My Village
I’m connecting with other parents who share similar values and challenges, rather than those who make me feel inadequate. My new mom friends send texts like “Forgot it was pajama day, sent kid in regular clothes, we’re both crying” instead of photos of elaborate homemade valentines.

The Real Gold Medal Moments

Since retiring from the Guilt Olympics, I’ve started noticing the real victories—the ones that don’t come with medals but matter infinitely more:

  • When Jake said, “Mom, I like that you have important work to do, just like me with my school”
  • When Emma told her career day class she wants to be a “boss like my mom”
  • When Lily fell and immediately called for me, even though three other adults were closer
  • When I heard Emma explaining to her friend, “My mom can’t come to every school thing because she has a big job, but she always comes to the important ones”
  • When Mark said, “The kids see how hard you work for them, and it’s making them into better people”

These moments remind me that my children are experiencing the reality of my love, not the perfection of my presence.

A New Definition of Winning

So I’m turning in my Guilt Olympics uniform and redefining what victory looks like for our family. It’s not perfect attendance at school functions or home-cooked meals every night. It’s raising children who feel deeply loved while watching their mother pursue a full, meaningful life.

Some days I still fail spectacularly. Just yesterday I snapped at Jake for moving too slowly while simultaneously checking work emails and burning toast. But instead of adding that moment to my guilt scoreboard, I apologized, explained I was feeling rushed, and moved on.

The greatest victory isn’t being a perfect mother—it’s being a real one. A mother who shows up imperfectly but authentically. Who models resilience, self-forgiveness, and the pursuit of a meaningful life. Who loves fiercely, even on the days when dinner comes from a drive-thru window.

That’s the medal worth winning, and one I can finally feel proud to wear.

What guilt routines are you ready to retire from? Share in the comments—let’s start our own retirement community!

Marriage After Kids: Finding Us in the Chaos

Posted by Natasha Red on March 4, 2025

Let’s have an honest conversation about marriage after kids, shall we? Not the Instagram version where couples still have weekly date nights and spontaneous weekend getaways. I’m talking about real marriage—the kind where you sometimes realize you haven’t made eye contact with your spouse in three days despite living in the same house.

Mark and I just celebrated our 14th wedding anniversary. “Celebrated” is a generous term. We ordered takeout after the kids went to bed, started a movie we both fell asleep during, and exchanged cards we bought at the grocery store that morning. Romantic? Not exactly. But here’s the truth—I wouldn’t trade this messy, exhausted partnership for anything.

What No One Tells You About Marriage After Kids

Before children, Mark and I had fascinating conversations about politics, philosophy, and our dreams for the future. We went to concerts, tried new restaurants, and occasionally spent entire Sundays doing absolutely nothing but enjoying each other’s company.

Now? Our most common exchanges include:

  • “Did Emma take her science project to school?”
  • “Who’s picking up Jake from basketball?”
  • “I think Lily pooped. Can you smell that?”
  • “Did you remember to pay the water bill?”
  • “We’re out of milk again.”

Gone are the philosophical debates, replaced by negotiations about whose turn it is to handle bedtime and which child is most likely lying about brushing their teeth.

The Roommate Phase is Real

There’s this phase of marriage after kids that nobody warns you about—I call it the Roommate Phase. It’s when you and your spouse operate like efficient but emotionally disconnected roommates, handling logistics and maintaining the household but rarely connecting as partners.

Signs you’re in the Roommate Phase:

  • You communicate primarily through text messages about pickups, drop-offs, and grocery needs
  • You haven’t kissed beyond a quick peck in… you can’t actually remember how long
  • Sex is scheduled (if it happens at all) and sometimes feels like another item on the to-do list
  • You fall asleep facing away from each other, phones in hand
  • You know more about your kids’ friends than what’s currently happening in your partner’s inner life

Mark and I hit this phase hard when Lily was born. Three kids in, we were drowning in diapers, sleep deprivation, and the logistical nightmare of managing multiple school and activity schedules. We became exceptionally good co-parents but started to forget we were also supposed to be lovers, friends, and confidants.

Small Moments of Connection Matter More Than Grand Gestures

About a year ago, I had a meltdown after realizing Mark and I had spent an entire weekend in the same house but hadn’t had a single meaningful interaction. We were ship-passing co-parents, not partners. Something had to change, but neither of us had the energy (or childcare options) for elaborate date nights.

So we started looking for small moments instead:

The 10-Minute Check-In Every night after the kids go to bed, we have 10 minutes of uninterrupted conversation that can’t involve logistics, kids, or complaints. Sometimes we talk about a podcast one of us heard, sometimes we remember a funny story from our dating days, sometimes we just sit in silence holding hands. But it’s our time, and it’s sacred.

Car Date Conversations We’ve discovered that some of our best conversations happen in the car when we’re alone. Now, instead of using solo drives to catch up on phone calls, we save them for each other. Last week, we sat in the school pickup line 20 minutes early just to finish a conversation about Mark’s work stress without little ears listening.

Elevated Ordinary Moments We can’t always get away for date night, but we can make ordinary moments special. After the kids are in bed, we’ll sometimes eat dessert on the porch with real plates instead of standing over the sink sharing a pint of ice cream with one spoon. We’ll light a candle during our regular takeout dinner. Small things that say, “This moment is different because it’s us.”

The Two-Minute Romance We’ve learned that maintaining physical connection doesn’t require hours of uninterrupted time (which, let’s be honest, doesn’t exist in this season). A two-minute make-out session while hiding in the pantry counts. A genuine embrace instead of the usual distracted half-hug matters. Physical touch, even briefly, keeps that part of our relationship alive during this hands-on parenting phase.

The Unsexiest Things Have Become Acts of Love

In the early days, Mark showed love with surprise weekend trips and thoughtful gifts. Now? Some of his most loving acts include:

  • Taking all three kids to the grocery store so I can have an hour alone
  • Handling Lily’s stomach bug cleanup at 3 AM without waking me
  • Remembering to switch the laundry when I forget
  • Making coffee just the way I like it every single morning
  • Defending my parenting decisions to his mother (this one’s huge)

And from my end:

  • Managing the doctor, dentist, and orthodontist appointments without him having to think about them
  • Keeping track of his parents’ birthdays and anniversaries
  • Making sure he has time to play basketball with his friends weekly
  • Not commenting on his increasingly questionable fashion choices
  • Pretending I don’t notice when he falls asleep during family movie night

These aren’t romantic in the traditional sense, but they’re evidence of deep partnership. We’re carrying each other through the exhaustion, one small act of service at a time.

Finding Humor in the Chaos

If there’s one thing that’s saved our marriage during the parenting years, it’s our shared sense of humor. We’ve learned to laugh at:

  • Date nights that end with both of us asleep on the couch by 9:30
  • Attempts at intimacy interrupted by a child suddenly appearing at the bedside asking for water
  • The ridiculous arguments we have while sleep-deprived (“You breathed too loudly while I was finally falling asleep!”)
  • The state of our once-tidy home
  • The entire concept of “having it all”

Last Valentine’s Day, Mark gave me a card that said, “I still want to hold your hand when we’re 80. But right now, can you hold the baby while I shower for the first time this week?” It wasn’t traditionally romantic, but it made me laugh until I cried because it was so perfectly US in this season.

Marriage as a Long Game

Here’s what I’ve learned about marriage after 14 years and three kids: it’s cyclical, not linear. There are seasons of intense connection and seasons of just hanging on. Times when we’re best friends and times when we’re just co-workers in the family business.

The key seems to be remembering that this intense parenting phase isn’t forever. Our children need us desperately right now, but someday they won’t. Mark and I are playing the long game—maintaining just enough connection to ensure that when the kids are grown, we still know and like each other.

Sometimes I look at him across the chaos of our dinner table—Jake spilling milk for the third time, Emma rolling her eyes at something I’ve said, Lily singing the same song lyric over and over—and catch his eye. He’ll give me that tired half-smile that says, “Can you believe this is our life?” And in that microscopic moment of connection, I remember: this is the person I chose. This is the family we built. This beautiful mess is exactly what we signed up for.

Marriage after kids isn’t what they show in the movies. It’s better and worse and harder and more meaningful than I ever imagined. It’s finding each other in the small moments between everything else. It’s choosing each other, again and again, even when you’re too tired to form complete sentences.

So no, Mark and I don’t have an Instagram-worthy marriage. What we have is real—a partnership forged in the trenches of parenthood, strengthened by shared purpose, and sustained by the belief that underneath the parental roles, the core of US is still there, waiting for a little more time and attention when this season passes.

What about you? How do you and your partner maintain your connection amid the parenting chaos? Share your strategies (or commiserate!) in the comments below.

The School Project Panic: How a Simple Assignment Became a Family Crisis

Posted by Natasha Red on March 7, 2025

Let me set the scene: Wednesday night, 8:17 PM. Emma casually mentions as I’m loading the dishwasher, “Oh, I need to bring my ecosystems diorama tomorrow. It’s worth 30% of my science grade.”

Cue the screeching record sound. The blood draining from my face. The sudden realization that we’re about to embark on yet another late-night craft emergency that will test the very fabric of our family unit.

The Initial Shock and Denial Phase

“What diorama?” I ask, hoping against hope that this is somehow a dream or that I’ve completely hallucinated the last 15 seconds.

“The one about ecosystems? Mrs. Peterson assigned it three weeks ago. I need to show a rainforest ecosystem with at least five animals and three distinct vegetation layers. With labels.”

Mark, who has developed a sixth sense for school project disasters, immediately makes himself scarce. I hear the garage door open and close. Smart man.

I take a deep breath and ask the question I already know the answer to: “And what supplies do you have for this project?”

Emma looks at me like I’ve just asked if she’d like to grow a second head. “None? I thought we had stuff in the craft cabinet.”

The “craft cabinet” contains: three dried-out glue sticks, a package of construction paper with only orange sheets left, and roughly 17,000 broken crayons. Definitely not rainforest diorama material.

The Supplies Scramble

8:32 PM: Jake and Lily are technically in bed, though Lily has that pre-meltdown energy that suggests sleep is merely theoretical at this point. I call an emergency family meeting. Mark mysteriously returns from the garage with absolutely nothing accomplished but conveniently after the initial panic has subsided.

“OK, we need a shoebox, green stuff, animal figures, glue that actually works, and whatever else makes a rainforest,” I announce, as if I’m planning a heist rather than a 7th-grade science project.

Jake, suddenly wide awake at the prospect of crisis, volunteers: “I have a shoebox from my new sneakers! But I was saving it for something important.”

“This IS important,” Emma snaps. “My entire future depends on this stupid diorama.”

Mild dramatic, but the urgency is appropriate.

I send Mark to the 24-hour supermarket with a list of supplies while I frantically search YouTube for “easy rainforest diorama” tutorials. Every video starts with “this simple project should take about 30 minutes!” which is how I know they’re all filthy liars.

The Construction Catastrophe

9:45 PM: Supplies acquired. Kitchen table converted to craft central. Lily is now fully awake and insisting she needs to “help” by applying glue to everything within reach, including the cat.

Mark cuts blue construction paper for the river while I help Emma identify which plastic dinosaur toys could reasonably pass for rainforest animals if you squint and have a limited understanding of zoology.

10:23 PM: First major crisis when we realize the spray paint we bought to create the background is definitely not quick-drying as promised. Emma has a complete meltdown because “Mrs. Peterson will know we did this last minute!” As if the hot glue strands connecting everything like spider webs weren’t already a dead giveaway.

10:47 PM: Jake, still awake and now fully invested in Project Rainforest, suggests we use the hair dryer to speed up the paint drying. This actually works but fills the kitchen with fumes that have us all slightly loopy. Lily, who should have been asleep hours ago, uses this opportunity to stick googly eyes on everything, including the trees.

11:16 PM: The hot glue gun claims its first victim when I attach my index finger to a piece of cardboard representing the forest floor. Mark laughs, then immediately apologizes when he sees my face. Smart man, part two.

The Detail Desperation

11:38 PM: Emma is now obsessively researching rainforest facts to make sure her project is “scientifically accurate.” She rejects three different animal placements because “that species wouldn’t be found in that layer of the canopy, Mom.”

Meanwhile, I’m hot-gluing green Easter basket grass to popsicle sticks and calling them “emergent layer trees.” No one can prove I’m wrong.

12:14 AM: Mark has fallen asleep at the table with a half-painted toucan in his hand. Jake is still surprisingly energetic, offering increasingly bizarre suggestions like “What if we added a tiny working waterfall?” Lily finally crashed on the living room floor surrounded by the googly eyes she didn’t manage to stick to the project.

Emma and I make executive decisions about which scientific details matter (labels, definitely) and which ones don’t (the precise spacing between understory plants). I silently thank the universe that she didn’t choose marine biology as her special interest.

The Final Push

1:22 AM: We’ve reached the “good enough” stage of project completion. Is it perfect? Absolutely not. Does it contain the required elements? Technically yes. Will Mrs. Peterson know it was completed the night before? Without a doubt.

Emma meticulously writes labels while I clean hot glue strings off every surface. Mark wakes up disoriented, wondering if we’re still on the same day. (Barely.)

1:45 AM: Project complete. The rainforest diorama sits on the counter to dry overnight, a monument to parental dedication, seventh-grade procrastination, and the miracle of adhesives.

Emma looks at it critically. “It’s not as good as Sophia’s will be. Her mom is an actual artist.”

I resist the urge to launch the entire diorama into orbit and instead say, “It shows what you know about ecosystems, which is the actual point.”

She hugs me and whispers, “Thanks, Mom. Sorry I forgot to tell you sooner.”

And just like that, I’m not even mad anymore. Exhausted, slightly high on glue fumes, but not mad.

The Morning After

7:30 AM: Emma proudly carries her diorama to the car, careful not to disturb the still-slightly-tacky glue on the toucan. Jake mournfully waves goodbye to his shoebox, now transformed into a miniature South American ecosystem. Lily insists the googly-eyed trees are her contribution.

Mark hands me an extra-large coffee and whispers, “Same time next project?”

“If she gives less than 24 hours notice on the next one, she’s on her own,” I reply, knowing full well I’ll be right back at the craft table for the next crisis.

3:45 PM: Emma bounds into the car after school. “Mrs. Peterson loved my diorama! She said the three-dimensional canopy layers were very creative!”

All the lost sleep suddenly feels worth it. I’m practically glowing with pride as Emma describes how her classmates were impressed by her work.

Then she drops the bomb: “Oh, and we need to make a traditional costume from another country by Monday for social studies. I picked Iceland.”

And just like that, the cycle begins again.

The Lessons Learned

Here’s what I’ve realized after approximately 47 emergency school projects over the years:

  1. No matter how many times we check the planner/online portal/classroom newsletter, projects will always be surprise attacks.
  2. The supplies you need will always be available only at stores that closed 20 minutes ago.
  3. Your child will always remember crucial details (“it has to be a biome with precipitation under 10 inches annually”) only after you’ve purchased all the rainforest supplies.
  4. The educational value isn’t in the diorama or poster or costume—it’s in the crisis management, problem-solving, and teamwork required to pull it off.
  5. These projects aren’t testing our children’s knowledge—they’re testing parents’ commitment, creativity under pressure, and ability to function on minimal sleep.

So to all the other parents out there hot-gluing shoe boxes at midnight, I see you. I am you. We’re all in this together, armed with glue guns and fueled by caffeine, creating memories our kids will either cherish or use as material for future therapy sessions.

Either way, we’re showing up. And sometimes, that’s the biggest lesson of all.

Have you survived a last-minute school project catastrophe? Share your war stories in the comments below. Bonus points for photos of your masterpieces!

ABOUT AUTHOR
Mom with kid playing outdoors during the winter
Natasha Red

I’m Natasha Red – 37, mother of three beautiful chaos-makers (Emma, 12; Jake, 9; and Lily, 4), wife to Mark (my partner in survival for 14 years), and senior marketing manager at a tech firm that thankfully embraced remote work before I had to beg for it.